Deserving...

there she stood wings spread heart open
d e s e r v i n g ...

What makes one deserving?
Is it a life of hardship...deserving reprieve.
Is it a life of hard work...deserving reward.
Is it a life of sacrifice.....

Oh and we say... well how dare they have ______ or how dare they _____ they don't DESERVE that.
I deserve that more than they do... I .. a/b/c.
Sad to say this is a normal ego centric knee jerk we got going on in our brains at any given time.

Who is deserved?
You are.
I am.
We are.
They are.
She is.
He is.

I deserve the life I have chosen to live. I firmly believe that we are here on this planet because we chose to be here.
I do NOT believe that we are undeserving when we enter this life.
That we are somehow..unclean, undeserving, unworthy.
That is the biggest lie ever told.
Quite the opposite.
We are SO deserving.
And so... you... reading this... remind yourself- daily, weekly, hourly if you must.
That you are deserved.
And smile.

Embracing the notion...

Poinsettias are beautiful aren't they?

This morning I came to a realization.


Art is like a marriage.
You put your blood sweat and tears into it.
You get out of it what you put in.
Patience, loving kindness ... space... unconditionalness, truth.
Steady foundation for any prosperous, healthy marriage.
Art is like a marriage.

You might be saying, Yes yes we know this...
well me too little darling. Like I know that milk goes bad if you leave it on the counter.
It was knowledge. Seemingly useless.
Until this morning.

B A M .

Driving on my country road to work. The sun thawing out the frozen hillside, horses and cattle grazing while the Red tail Hawk sat like Watchers... providing safe passage...
it hit me.

So, I intend to cultivate this seed of my newfound  knowledge and let it grow.
Yes yes I will let it run dry at times, and weeds will get to it..but it will never die.
And it will always forgive my trespasses...my subtle neglect, because we are married.
I will hold up art.
And art will hold me up.
Art Marriage.

I am embracing this notion...-Lion Hearted

Oh my Word ....

My word for 2012 is LION-HEARTED

I have been pondering a word since last January...when I watched an interview with Will Smith and his word for the year was ALCHEMY. This totally intrigued me and I thought about doing this for the new year and then the year got away from me. Well not this year.... I am on top of it. Planning, scheming, preparing for the last two months. Had to go offline, had to surrender, had to do some patch work...and now I am ready... ready for The Book of Days w/Effy Wild... wont you join me?

Lion Hearted

Subtle she is not

she is Lion Hearted

getting to the root of it

the gritty tooth of it

binded only by the force of love that moves her

she is Lion Hearted

With a roar she meets the year head on

strong

unwilling to surrender

to all that was

unwritten and yet still

she has no thought of regret

her feet are planted and eyes are set

Lion Hearted 

she's me.